Saturday, October 4, 2014
Saturday, September 13, 2014
haven't had sex in a month, and i can't stop thinking
about your hands around my neck
and your arms pulling me into you
and my arms begging for you to be closer
and your hands turning into fists while intertwined in my hair
and my hands going all the way down your back
and your tongue tickling ever part of my skin
and my mouth moving to all the right places
and sharing giggles and kisses in between
and being mangled in each other afterwards
and ugGGgHHhHHhhHhhhhh, I can't.
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Sunday, July 20, 2014
how can you look me in the face and say I don’t love you?
when we lay in bed together I trace “I love you” into your back, every single time, not because I want you to feel it but because I want it to burn into your skin so you never forget it
I’ve been writing about you since you told me you loved me
when you told me you never wanted to see me again I wanted to pull my hair out, or have someone be there to punch me in the face for even getting the slightest bit close to losing you
I don’t just want you, I need you
I didn’t stick around for the fuck of it, I did because I love you
I didn’t wait outside for you all night night because I felt like it, but because I love you
I’ll stand by your side forever
you’re the only person who’s ever made me not want to be alone, and that’s a big fucking deal
when I want to be alone, I want to be alone with you
all I ever want to be, is alone with you
even if we are just sitting on the couch, I could look at you forever
and I know you hate being looked at but I love every inch of your face
when I’m the reason that you’re smiling or laughing it makes my day
when you’re in a good mood, I’m radiant
when you’re in a bad mood, I get depressed
when we are in crowded room together I search for you, I always want you by my side
your crazy and I’m really out of my mind
I’m out of my mind in love with you
I’m so out of mind in love with you that I’m never going to let you leave me.
because you’re it for me, this is it, I can feel it in my bones and in the deepest part of my soul, giving up isn’t an option,
you’re already in my veins
you take up all the space in my brain
you keep my head above water, if it wasn’t for you, id drown.
so how can you look me in the face and say I don’t love you?
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
I want to be looked at
I want you to look at me when I'm not looking
I want you to look at me while I look at you
I want to be touched
I want you to touch my face
I want you to run your fingers through my hair
I want to be kissed
I want you to kiss my forehead
I want you to kiss me everywhere
I want to be held
I want you to hold me when I'm sick
I want you to hold me from behind while we wait in a long line at some buffet restaurant
I want to be loved
I want you to tell me about our love
I want you to fantasize about our love
I want you to be consumed by our love
look at me, touch me, kiss me, hold me, love me
Friday, June 27, 2014
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
there's not one thing I've done right
I've rebelled my life away to nothing.
I've fallen in love with someone who doesn't want to understand me.
worst yet, I've fallen in love and thought that that person could look in my eyes and see my world crumbling around my feet.
but he doesn't even know me.
he doesn't know that this is my worst, he doesn't know that this is a test, he doesn't know that he's failing.
how would he know that this is my worst when I don't even speak?
I'm just in a bad mood.
I'm just giving off bad vibes.
my life is crumbling! I need you! I'm screaming for you!
all inside my head
you don't hear me
I just hear myself
there's no one to save me. there's no one to save you.
you've got to save yourself.