Sunday, July 20, 2014

how can you look me in the face and say I don’t love you?
when we lay in bed together I trace “I love you” into your back, every single time, not because I want you to feel it but because I want it to burn into your skin so you never forget it
I’ve been writing about you since you told me you loved me
when you told me you never wanted to see me again I wanted to pull my hair out, or have someone be there to punch me in the face for even getting the slightest bit close to losing you
I don’t just want you, I need you
I didn’t stick around for the fuck of it, I did because I love you
I didn’t wait outside for you all night night because I felt like it, but because I love you
I’ll stand by your side forever
you’re the only person who’s ever made me not want to be alone, and that’s a big fucking deal
when I want to be alone, I want to be alone with you
all I ever want to be, is alone with you
even if we are just sitting on the couch, I could look at you forever
and I know you hate being looked at but I love every inch of your face
when I’m the reason that you’re smiling or laughing it makes my day
when you’re in a good mood, I’m radiant
when you’re in a bad mood, I get depressed
when we are in crowded room together I search for you, I always want you by my side
your crazy and I’m really out of my mind
I’m out of my mind in love with you
I’m so out of mind in love with you that I’m never going to let you leave me.
because you’re it for me, this is it, I can feel it in my bones and in the deepest part of my soul, giving up isn’t an option,
you’re already in my veins
you take up all the space in my brain
you keep my head above water, if it wasn’t for you, id drown.
so how can you look me in the face and say I don’t love you?

Sunday, July 13, 2014

I've never wanted to beg for anything

I've never wanted to beg for anything
I've always known that people always leave 
but I forgot 
I thought you came into my life and you were gonna stay
better yet, I thought if you'd ever leave that you wouldn't come back
but you always say you're done, you always wanna leave
but you alway come back
why won't you just stay with me 
or just stay gone
but please stay
please don't leave me
I've never wanted to beg for anything
but I'll beg for you to stay
please stay
I don't know what to do without you
you don't understand that anything I feel with you is ten times better than what I feel alone
you don't have to make me happy every waking minute
just love me
and I'll love you
let that be enough
I've never wanted to beg for anything
but I'll beg for you to let it be enough 
I want to be enough
why can't I be enough? 

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

I want want want

I want to be looked at 


I want you to look at me when I'm not looking

I want you to look at me while I look at you 


I want to be touched


I want you to touch my face

I want you to run your fingers through my hair


I want to be kissed


I want you to kiss my forehead

I want you to kiss me everywhere


I want to be held


I want you to hold me when I'm sick

I want you to hold me from behind while we wait in a long line at some buffet restaurant 


I want to be loved


I want you to tell me about our love

I want you to fantasize about our love


I want you to be consumed by our love


look at me, touch me, kiss me, hold me, love me